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tiny monthly themed ep 9/12

things change.


released October 13, 2016




people you meet outside of bars Peterborough, Ontario

hi, i'm satah. welcome to gay goth vibes dot online, my collection of big feelings. i like to sing about stuff that hearts do, like stopping forever or breaking or going too fast or whatever

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Track Name: this time
loving you concurrently with feeling like shit
i got to thinking it was loving you that made me feel like this
now i think i needed something to blame for feeling bad
& you're the most important thing i had

it isn't fair to you, i know
none of this is just
it isn't easy for either of us

this time, this time

i'll drink less, you'll talk more
we'll know what to look for
be gentle, go slowly
don't pretend what's profane is now holy

this time, this time
this time, this time
this time
Track Name: nowhere
old leaves on dark ground
i am nowhere
nowhere to be found

i am lost
i try to step soft

dry leaves on wet ground
light a smoke to quiet
quiet everything down

i am gone
just carry on
Track Name: hands in mouths
i find the dryer in the dark, i flick a switch
liquid hits liquid & i grin around my fist

new bad habits for a new year

i don't believe in god, but the book is just a symbol
i don't believe in family, but the history is simple

so i put my hand on my grandmother's bible
and i swear i will not love you anymore
i will not kiss your lipstick stains
i will not haunt your windowpanes
i will not tape poetry to your front door

my fingertips whisper tales of pharynges & bathroom tiles
my arms bleed dust & when i hear your name, i smile

old bad habits for a new year

i once believed i'd grow, and i have changed, in some respects
i once believed in you and me, but the history's complex

so i put my nose in the dip of your neck
and mumble that we keep getting older
if we co-ordinate, if we exercise restraint
if we both keep each other at arms length
we can have our hands on each other's shoulders

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