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02:16
how can i say that i’m in control when i’ve been doing shots of warm cointreau? well i always find my find my way home no broken bones yet how can i say i’ve got free will when i don’t remember paying my bill? well i never get thrown thrown out of bars no major scars yet just these dark purple puddles on my skin and a slightly, slightly muddled recollection how can i say i’m not a wreck as i drain a bottle of triple sec? well i rarely hurt my hurt my friends no big amends yet how can i say that all is well when i’m not quite sure just where i fell? well we always laugh at laugh at my tales no time in jail yet just this sick yellow swampland on my skin and a day or two of offhand disaffection how can that i say that i’ll be fine when i’ve clearly lost my fucking mind? well i always wake up wake up in my bed and i’m not dead yet
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cross my legs at the knee take in all that i can see embers on pretty girls' lips flowers cascading down their hips avoid their gaze as they walk by watch them move and softly sigh put bare feet on warm cement and think of all that i can't get break into a hotel 'cause i'm bored admire the bouquets and tiled floors stare at my face in the mirror try to be thankful that i'm still here fail and check the bruises on my wrists name the girls i never quite kissed wonder how it ever came to this heading home with cigarettes a six pack and some fresh regrets shake off the rain, shake off the wraiths go meet an old friend, my secret disgrace take stock of my failings and my charms investigate the scabs on legs and arms stare at my face in the mirror try to be thankful that i'm still here try to be happy that i exist mourn the girls i never quite missed wonder how it ever came to this
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02:09
waking up on the covers, feet under the pillow for the third or fourth or fifth afternoon in a row with my clothes on with my phone dead with radio static filling my head my friends are like "we went to costco, we had a glass of wine" i'm like, "i only barely escaped doing time" they have a membership, they have self-control i'm working a shovel at the bottom of a deep hole an average person's rock bottom is my average weeknight never know how i got to bed or who turned out the light but i feel fine maybe unnerved but definitely better than i could possibly deserve my friends just chill; they're buying furniture and paying phone bills and i'm still crushing up pills they have a game plan, they have life goals i'm working a shovel at the bottom of a deep hole i drink water i'm scared of consequences & man i feel them coming with all my spidey senses i'll try to face them i'll try to be brave i will not be dug out i will not be saved i'll keep pushing limits til i find my boundaries and when i do, it will probably fucking kill me

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released July 18, 2016

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people you meet outside of bars Peterborough, Ontario

hi, i'm satah. welcome to gay goth vibes dot online, my collection of big feelings. i like to sing about stuff that hearts do, like stopping forever or breaking or going too fast or whatever

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